又是一年冬離去

沒有把握的愛情，是我允許自己去開始的，所以，我得學會承受它帶來的一切後果。開始了的愛情，是我自己決定放棄的，所以，我得自己親自收拾殘局。不管是痛還是傷，我自己的選擇，沒有回頭路可走，所以，此刻，我只能繼續往前走。

他說我是飄忽不定的，他說他把控不住我，是的，都對。他不知道，我只能在飄忽不定的時候才能讓自己抽身而退，我只有不被別人把控，才能把控得住自己。誰懂了，才能讓我安定下來，天知道，我是多麼的害怕自己的義無反顧與飛蛾撲火。他不懂，我只能放他走。畢竟，沒有誰的幸福，我有權利耽誤。

回到家，看著家裡地上擺的一排酒，停頓了下，終究沒喝。我知道喝醉的結果，就是把控不住自己，還想著往回跑。我不允許自己再重蹈覆轍，畢竟，錯了一次，就夠了。

洗臉刷牙睡覺，惟一的不足就是，我臉上沒法裝出一副好像都沒發生的樣子。我知道，我的表情不夠明朗，那僵硬的表情和緊撇的唇，誰都知道我不開心。所以，我得趕緊睡覺，閉上眼，蒙上被子，誰也看不見。

只是，我告訴自己，別再有下一次了，別輕易開始，也別輕易結束，這滋味，真***的不好受。我承認，我也沒那麼堅強，此刻，還是眼淚泛濫。

Unsure of love, I allow myself to start, so I have to learn to bear all the consequences it brings. The love that started was my decision to give up, so I had to pick up the mess myself. Regardless of whether it is pain or injury, my own choice does not go back. Therefore, at this moment, I can only go forward.

The

He said that I was erratic. He said he could not control me. Yes, he was right. He did not know that I could only let myself withdraw when I was erratic. I could only control myself if I were not controlled by others. Whoever knows it will make me settle down. God knows how scared I am and I am not afraid to go back to fire with moths. He does not understand, I can only let him go. After all, no one"s happiness, I have the right to delay.

The

Back home, watching a row of wine placed on the floor of the house, paused and eventually did not drink. I know the result of drunk is to control myself and still want to run back. I do not allow myself to make the same mistake again. After all, it is enough to be wrong.

The

The only problem with washing my face and brushing my teeth to sleep is that I can"t seem to have a look that doesn"t seem to happen on my face. I know that my expression is not clear enough, that stiff expression and tight lips, everyone knows that I am not happy. Therefore, I must hurry to sleep, close my eyes and cast a quilt, and no one can see it.

The

Only, I told myself, don"t stop again, don"t start lightly, don"t end lightly, it"s like this, it"s really uncomfortable. I admit that I was not so strong. At the moment, tears still flooded.

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