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LoveRediscover

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「

我們是LoveRediscover。

分享LGBT真實故事，為LGBT community傳遞聲音。

愛就是愛。美麗，驕傲，平等。

」

去年年初（2016年）我加入了一個叫做自殺小組的群聊。這本來就是一個互相支持對方的討論組。當時的我對於自己的身份認知有些困惑。我交了很多新朋友，開始瀏覽所有的已知性向，但我發現我討厭被貼上一種性向的標籤。我在小組聊天中的朋友們幫助我告訴我的媽媽我是雙性戀，她卻不予接受。

幾個月後，我開始放棄尋找自己的性取向，我並不在乎。我的性別對我來說一直是一個很大的問題：我從來沒有很女性化，而是想成為一個假小子。第三年我剪短了我的頭髮。

「我叫Charlie，我是並且一直是一個男孩。」

這是故事的敘述者

當時在小組聊天里，我說自己是流動性別（genderfluid），而和一個叫Hayley的女孩成為了朋友，因為她說她也是流動性別。在我遇到她之前，我告訴兒童教養熱線我曾嘗試過上吊自殺，我至少試過將一條解開的皮帶勒在我的脖子上，於是我媽媽帶我去見了一位顧問。

我告訴Hayley我是一個跨性別男孩並且以Perks of being a wallflower中的Charlie給自己命名。我首先告訴了我的第一個朋友Ellie。她很友善的接受了這個事實。接著我和一個叫做Issie的女生成為了朋友。 Hayley，Issie和我在直到幾個月前我搞砸了之前都非常親密，但是從此我們沒有說過話。我和一個也是跨性別男孩Pedro也是親密的朋友。

通往平等的路。

那個叫做自殺小組的群聊並沒有很大的幫助，但現在我可以與一群非常棒的人進行更積極的聊天。

我還沒有告訴我的家庭我對自己的性取向認知，但我已經開始有足夠的信心在家庭對話里發表自己對於lgbtq+群體的意見了。我在學校也有一個跨性別朋友，我經常和他談話，我們通過表情包和各種電視節目而成為了朋友。

我的生活現在並不是非常的順利，但互聯網不僅幫助我找到了對自己的認知並且幫助我找到了和我興趣相似的朋友。今天晚上我的哥哥說變性人不是一個真實的事情，但是我的網友們調解我並且讓我理解了他的愚蠢。我真的很愛很感謝他們。

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△ My story. I joined a group chat at the beginning of last year (2016) called Suicide squad. It was meant to be a support chat. At the time I had been struggling with my identity. I made tons of new friends. I began almost browsing through sexualities but found that i hated being labelled like that. My friends on the group chat helped me tell my mum i was bi. She denied it. A few months later I kinda gave up on finding a sexuality and now i don"t care. My gender had always been a big question for Me i was never girly and wanted to be a tomboy. I had cut my hair in year 3 to have it short. At the time of the group chat I said i was genderfluid and i bonded with this girl hayley who also said she was genderfluid. I am unsure about times but before i met her i told childline that i had tried to hang myself or at least pressed an untied belt to my neck and my mum took me to a counsellor. I told hayley I was a trans boy and named myself Charlie after the main character from the perks of being A wallflower. I told my first friend Ellie this first. She took it well and was insanely kind about it. I made friends with a girl Issie. Hayley, Issie and I were super close for months until a couple months ago when I fucked up and we havent talked since. I am close friends with a boy Pedro who is also trans. The group chat did not work out but now I have a more active chat with a range of awesome people. I haven"t come out to my family but have began to be confident enough to voice my opinions Whenever lgbt+ matters come up. I have a trans friend at school who i talk to often to avoid pe and we have bonded through memes and tv shows. My life isnt going so well but the internet has helped me in many ways from helping me realise my identity to helping me make friends. Tonight my brother said that being transgender isnt a real thing but my internet friends managed to make me laugh at his stupidity. I love them all so much.

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